: 7.e. T would ſpeak freely for my ſelf,being freed from the dread of his M:jeſty,which takes away my ſpirit and courage,and ſtoppeth ſelf. my mouth. «z.e. I am not free from his terrour, and therefor: can- not and dare not plead my Cauſe boldly with him; and to have no- thing elſe to do but to eaſe my ſelf by renewing my Complaints, as he doth in the next words. , Others thus, But 1 am mot Jo with my ſelf, 5.e Tam in a manner beſides my ſelf, diſtracted with the ter- rours of God upon me, Or rather thus, For 1 am net (o with my ſelf, or 11 my own Conſcience, as I perceive I amin your eyes; to Wits an Hypocrite and ungodly man. So this-isa reaſon why he could ſpeak to God without ſlaviſh fear, becaute he was conſciousto him= ſe]f of his own Integity: I have a good Conſcience within my ſelf, and therefore could uſe boldneſs in ſpeaking ro Ged, provided he would not deal with me in ſtri& juſtice,but upon the terms of grace and mercy which he hath propoſed to ſinners, and with allowance -
to humane Inficmities: SEP. X
His Life a burthen : his complaint that he could not ſze the cauſe or end of Gods puniſhment ; God delighteth not to oppreſs; nor was his innocence, rhough ſuſpeted by men, hid from God, 1 ---....-. 7. He urgeth that be- ing Gods work, in his hands, receiving all from him, God would not de- ſtroy him, 8 ————— 13. His ſens expoſe him to Gods wrath, which was terrible upon him, 14—17, Curſeth his birch : Death deſireable to him, 18 ——22.
M Y * ſoul is || weary of my life a, T will leave my of ) the bitterneſs of my ſoul c.
2 So the Senſe is; My foul is weary of dwelling in this rotten P#% and miſerable Carcaſs: Or IT am from my heart, or with my very
Soul weary of my life;and therefore I may be excuſed if I complain Or, My foul 3s cut off while I live; i e T1 am dead whilſt Ilive I am in a manner buried alive. b$o the ſen'e is,I will complain, and the burden or hazard of fo doing I will take upon my ſelf and be willing to bear it : I muſt give my forcows vent, let come on me what will,as he faith, Chap. 13.13. Bur the words may be read interrogatively, Shall I then ( or, how can Ithen ) leave my complaint,( i e. give over complaining ) within or concerning ( as the Hebrew #l oft fignifies)my ſelf ? or they may be rendred thus, /wi/ trengthen ( as:this Verb fig- nifies, Neh. 3 8. ) my complaint againſt my ſelf, whereby le impliesthat he would not complain againſt God,ſo as to accuſe h:m of Injuſtice but only againſt himſelf,or againſt his own life; os conc-rnmg my ſelf ;
7 e. I muſt renew and encreaſe my Complaints, as God renews and encreaſes my Sorrows. c My extream Miſery forceth my Coms : plaints from me- 2 I will fay utito God, Do not condemn me & ; hew | me wherefore e thou contendeſt with me.
d Or pronounce me not to be # wicked man as my Friends do, neither deal.with me as ſuch,as I confeſs thou mighrzſt do by thy Soveraign Power-and in Rigo:ous Juſtice: O diſcover my Integrity by remo- ving this ſtroke for w! ic'4 my Friends ſo highly cenſure & condemn me. ez e. for what ends and reaſons and for what ſins; for I am not conſcious to my ſelf of any peculiarand eminent ſins by which I have deſcrved to be made the moſt miſeratle of al) Morrals;
2 1s :t good unto thee f that thou ſhouldeſt oppreſs g?
34 * Let him take his rod away from me, and let not &5 4
ſtood really,as if God would make hin filthy, bur only judici.ily, that God wou'd prove him to be a moſt gui'ty and hirhy Crea-ure, notwithſtanding all the Profeſſions and Evidences of his Purity be- fore men 2»: 5. e.I ſhal be { altogerher filrhy,that my own clothes, ifthey had any ſenſe in them, would abhor to touch me. A figure called Proſopopaia. .
32 For he is not a manasI ayy o, that I ſhould anſwer him p, and that we thould come together q in judge- ment, |
0 But one infinitely ſuperiour to me in Majeſty ,and Power, and Wiſdom, and Juſtice. p That I ſhou'd pr-ſume to debate my Caule with him,or anſwer bis Allegations againſt me. q tace to face, to Plead upon equal terins before a Superiour and indifferent Judge,
ſeerh outſides only,& judgeth by zppearances, and. is liable to many miſtakes,and cannor ſearch out ſecret faults without forcing men by cruel uſage t» accuſe themſelves But thou needeſr none cf theſe Arts, thou ſeeſt mine heart & mine uprightneſs, which myFriends do not ſez, whotherefore are more excuſable in charging me with hypociifie: Butthou knoweſt all things, thou needeſr not examine me by Tortures, as thou now doeſt, v. 6 For, thou knoweft that I am not wicked, as he faith wv, 7, and therefore donot thou deal with me
as if I were wicked. 5 Are thy days as the days of man ? are thy years as
mans days mn 2
n Manstime 1s ſhortand uncertain,and therefore he muſt improve his time, whilſt te hath ir, anddiligently ſearch out the Crimes of 4E4 Male=
Chap. X.
33 * Neither is there + any. [| days-man 4 betwixt us, * 1Sam:2. 25:VECT:194 t Heb:ons that Shal
point the time and place of our Meeting;to order and govern us 1n | Or. U, ha pleading ; and to oblige us to ſtand to his decition. The hand is off vire ,
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complaint upon my ſelf b,; I wiil ſpeak in ( #r * Ch.7:16; || or,cut off
ſlive