Quest. If we find that we have little comfort and strength by the word of God, that we have not seen the beauty of it, what shall we do, what course shall we take ?
Ans. 1. Wait still. Wait still at the pool for the angel's stirring, John V. 4 ; for God at length will discover his power by his Spirit ; he will dis- cover his goodness, if not at the first, yet at length. Therefore let us use all sanctified means. And know this for a ride, that God's Spirit is an ex- cellent worker. He will only work by his own instruments.
2. And come to the ordinances with a spirit of faith, because they are God's ordinances. God will discover himself in some excellency or other; he will discover some comfort and grace, somewhat that is useful to our souls to build us up to eternal life. Let us come with a particular faith that he will do so. Faith must answer God's promise. God hath promised, ' where two or three are met together in his name, he will be in the midst of them.' He hath made a promise to bless all his ordinances. Therefore let our par- ticular faith answer God's ordinances. Lord, I go to thy house to hear thy word, to receive thy sacrament in thy fear, in reverence of thy majesty, and in a spirit of faith, I expect thee to make good thy own ordinance. This brings a marvellous efficacy with it. If we go with a particidar faith, know that God will be as good as his word. This course we must take to see the beauty of the Lord.
3. And then, as I said before, often Jet our thoughts be upon these sjJiritiud excellencies. Let us balance and weigh things in our thoughts. Love comes from judgment, love comes from an esteem of things, of the goodness of things, and that comes from a right judgment. Let us therefore labour to have a right judgment of things to be. as they are. Solomon was the wisest man, next to him that was God-man, that ever was, and he knew what spiritual things were, and what all other things in the world were, and what verdict doth he give ? This is the whole man, ' to fear God and keep his commandments, Eccl. xii. 13, And how doth he commend wisdom in Prov. viii. 1, seq. All precious things are nothing in comparison of the wisdom of God's word. But what saith he of other things ? He that had run through all things by experience, and thought to extract the quintessence of all that the creature could give, he saith they were but ' vanity and vexation of spirit,' Eccles. i. 2 ; trust my experience. Therefore let us be able to lay in the balance the good that we get or may get by the blessed ordi- nances of God, with other things whatsoever. Oh tJie beauty and excel-
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lency of spiritual things, it is above all other beauty whatsoever ! Alas ! what is outward beauty ? it is but a lump of well-coloured earth.* What is gold, and all the lustre of it ? It is but earth refined. And what are all honours and goodly delights that way ? It is but a puff of smoke, it is nothing ; in one word, it is vanity, and experience proves this every day. Oh ! but the ' word of the Lord endureth for ever,' 1 Pet. i, 25, that is, the comforts, and the privileges that we have by the word of God, they endure for ever ; and then more especially the comfort of them when out- ward comforts fail most, even upon our deathbed. When conscience is awakened then, and hath presented to it the former life, and the guilt of many sins, what will comfort a man then ? his goodly apparel, or his goodly feature, or his gi'cat place and honom- ? (Perhaps these will increase his grief as they have been instruments of sin.) Oh no ; this will do him good. Such a comfort I heard in such a sermon ; such good things I heard read, and such good things come to my mind ; such experience I have of God's Spirit working at such and such a time; these will testify that God's Spirit went with his ordinance to fasten somewhat on my soul, and they will comfort when nothing else will.
Let us oft compare all other things with the beauty of God, and his ordinances, as if all were nothing to them. Thus holy Moses, he saw a beauty and a glory in the despised people of God that made brick ; he saw they were the people that God set his delight on, and that the church of God was there. When he saw that, he despised all the glory of Pharaoh's court, and accounted the worst thing in religion, ' the reproach and shame,' better than aU the pleasures of sin, Heb. xi. 23. Beloved, the bitterest things in the ordinance of God are better than any worldly thing. What is the bitterest thing in the ordinance of God ? Reproofs ! They are as precious balm. If the ordinance of God meet with our particular sins, and tell us, and discover to us what an enemy it is, that it wiU be the bane of our souls if we Uve in it, and it send us away to look to om'selves, this will be as a precious balm ; our souls will come to be saved by it. And if for rehgion we suffer reproach and shame, it will be as a crown, as holy Moses accounted the reproach of Chiist better than the treasures of Eg}-pt, Heb. xi. 26. If the worst and bitterest things in God's ordinance be so sweet, what are the best things of all ? The comforts of religion. "What is the peace of conscience and joy in the Holy Ghost, and eternal glory in heaven ? What are the excellencies of rehgion, when the shame and disgrace are to be preferred before all other things whatsoever ?