12. Believing now that his mother was fully satisfied, he was no sooner returned home, than he caused _Te Deum_ to be sung, beginning it himself, in thanksgiving for this happy conclusion. But God, to refine and purify him the more, permitted the cross to continue upon him. For his mother, not satisfied yet, found means to appeal from the award, without incurring the penalty.
Her son did all that was possible for him to alter her design; after earnest prayer, and extraordinary fasting, he went to her, cast himself on his knees before her, and with the utmost reverence, humility and submission, begged of her over and over, with abundance of tears, “that she would please to take him and his family to herself; and after that she might dispose as she pleased of all the goods his father had left him.” But neither would she consent to this, but persisted in her resolution, of suing him at the parliament of _Dijon_. This he might have prevented, and never stirred out of _Paris_, but in respect to her, he declined it, and determined to go to _Dijon_.
13. Being come thither, he found all mens minds fully prejudiced against him, which he gladly endured, that he might be partaker of the reproach, and honour the abasement of the Son of God. And when a person of piety acquainted him with the strange reports which were spread abroad concerning him, he with admirable calmness raised his heart to God, and humbled himself before him. She asked, Whether it was true that injurious papers had been put in against his mother? He answered, “No; he had seen all the writings, and found them drawn with the respect due to a parent.” *She asked further, “If he was not much afflicted at her harsh manner of proceeding against him?” He said, “No; because I so much adore the order of God over me, that I cannot be afflicted at that which he permits to befal me. I am a great sinner, and therefore not only my mother, but all the word have just cause to take part against me.”
14. She adds in a memorial, that many ways were proposed for adjusting the difference; but that it was the greatest difficulty in the world to bring his mother to join in any: that in the midst of these delays, she said to M. _de Renty_, “Sir, I shall willingly say the _Te Deum_, when once your business is ended.” And that one day when they believed it would be wholly concluded, he came to her with a chearful countenance, and said, “It is now time to say the _Te Deum_, since you had the goodness to promise it. And may I be so bold as to desire to say it with you? O what a great and wise God have we! Who knows well, how to do all things, as they ought and when they ought, not according to our precipitation, but his order, which is our sanctification!” Hereupon he said the _Te Deum_, with a spirit so elevated to God, as gave sufficient evidence of his being wholly filled with him. And when afterwards all was broken off, without hopes of making up again, he said, *“It is well; though nothing be done, it was very fit to return thanks to God, for doing his own will, and not that of a sinner, unworthy to be heard or regarded.”
15. There passed many other things at _Dijon_, and since at _Paris_, during these differences, even to the death of his mother. But I doubt not, he who is now in the place of perfect charity, approves of my passing over in silence the failings of her, to whom all his life he bore so much love and respect.